A look back

Well, it’s the last day of the year.  I’ve had plenty of time to look back, and reflect, and… mostly I can only think of the problems I’m facing today.  The whole year has gone by too fast.  Progress is slow, and I’ve been sick lately.  Thankfully, it’s not CovID.

Cole Road Café. (Oct 30 9:52 a.m.)

Things moved faster when aunt J visited.

(Oct 29 3:00 p.m.)

Decent restaurants were involved.

Surfer. (Oct 31 2:05 p.m.)

But that visit was only because things needed to be moved out of my mother’s storage unit.  (My mother and J. are okay by the way.)

Remember to wear a mask in the pool! (Oct 29 3:42 p.m.)

It’s harder to get a grip on things when it seems like everything is decaying too quickly, and you can’t catch up.  One of my teeth is really in bad shape, so I’m definitely going to have to move faster, and work harder next year.

And then I hear we all lost Betty White.  The legend.  Just 18 days shy of 100.  It takes the wind out of your sails, at least for a moment, when you see stars fall, lose role models, and hear about your friends losing loved ones.  There have been a lot of funerals this year.  My friend in Kentucky lost two… an awful year.

Addendum: It wasn’t just deaths either.  I all but lost my mother to mental illness and/or mold-dementia earlier in the year.  She’s alive but not at all the same person she was months prior—fragile, skin and bones, and can barely function or recall events.  She may have lost her sense of taste or smell from CovID but doesn’t remember.

(Dec 18 2:55 p.m.)

This pandemic isn’t endemic yet.

Dizzy Birds Rotisserie. (Oct 21 6:34 p.m.)

But to do nothing isn’t an option.  Living in denial is not living at all.  You must exercise or you start losing function.

So no more excuses.  Less dwelling and more doing.  Make our time count.  Document and account.  And give the finger to people who refuse to be accountable.  Read and learn.  Sure as hell, I can’t afford to dwell.

Fresh snow.  And more was gifted to us on Christmas. (Dec 19 3:56 p.m.)

There is always more out there.  Dwelling in emotions and ignorance solves nothing.  And on the other end, we can prepare as much as we can and still fail.  Because experience isn’t some quiz; in life, you’re going to fail anyway sometimes.

Berry tree. (Dec 9 12:53 p.m.)

There will be rainy days.  And fires, and floods.  And with climate change, water will always move around in large quantities.  It’s either do or listen to some accurate research or risk drowning or drought at some point.

So we use our senses, and keep moving.

And yet, every now and then perspective is lost enough that we ask ourselves: is there more to life than just work?  Routine?  And then life comes and proverbially smacks us in the face to say “YES!”  There is more to life than work!

“There is nothing so far removed from us to be beyond our reach, or so far hidden that we cannot discover it.” — René Descarte

NASA geologist Farouk El-Baz wrote this on the blackboard during the Apollo 16 mission.  There will always be more to life than what we can fathom.  We explore.  We learn the inner workings of things.  And a lot of the time discoveries happen by accident.

(Sep 25, 2019 2:37 p.m.)

We’ve studied and learned things about the universe, and yet, we’ve only touched the surface of species discovered within the depths of the deepest oceans.

Many beaches, and much of Earth human life has taken for granted. (Sep 20, 2019 2:02 p.m.)

Some people aren’t ready to leave their comfort zones, and most don’t travel out of cost.  And some parts of mankind don’t seem ready to explore other places for the fact that the worst of humanity looks to exploit for resources.

The human world is connected with the internet… but superficially, and easily taken for granted.  So much information is at the literal touch of our finger tips with touch screens, but with commercialism newer generations just seem to shrug.  Exploration takes a backseat when things aren’t great at home, and worse when exploration seems like a distraction.  Or with Amazon, dick rockets.  Dare I say, America is number one(!) at being spoiled.  I hate to see my country become a nation of a-holes, but that’s what happens when the people are lost and stuck in the anger stage of denial.

A “relic” thrown away because it was VHS. (Oct 29 11:49 a.m.)

That isn’t to say I’m innocent.  I haven’t been around the world to say I understand life beyond a blip of experience.  I’ve never been outside of New England.  And I have my cell phone, and buy things in plastic.  Is it not an excuse when I say I’d rather buy things in cardboard or glass jars, when I could be growing my own food?

Some things may be out of reach right now, but lame excuses are just dishonest, are they not?

(Dec 6, 2019 1:23 p.m.)

As far as discovery goes, museums help a bit to show the world in physical form.

Inside looking out. (Dec 6, 2019 2:13 p.m.)

Some museums even give you a ride.

(Dec 6, 2019 2:14 p.m.)

At the Seashore Trolley Museum, you get a ride in one of the classic trolleys, refurbished.

(Dec 6, 2019 2:16 p.m.)

And witness the electric arcs with the trolley’s contacts after you get off, and watch other people get on.  Most people have electronics in their pockets, yet they don’t know what electricity is at the basic physics level.

(Dec 6 1:23 p.m.)

It’s a shame when some educational courses cheapen the experience by going for rote memorization instead of laying out a hands-on approach at the history.  Imagine learning more from a so-called “kids’ show.”  A hands-on approach doesn’t make the experience any less adult, does it?  There was a time when I caught Mr Wizard’s World when it re-aired on Nickelodeon some mornings.  Don Herbert didn’t treat the kids or the audience like babies.  And yet it seems these days like many adults out there act like children.

(Dec 6, 2019 1:23 p.m.)

We live in our own little world.  And unfortunately, because of greed, many people are poisoned with propaganda.

(Sep 27, 2019 12:42 p.m.)

Okay, so this blog doesn’t say much in the grand schemes of things.  It’s also just a blip in the trillions of words on the internet.

(Sep 27, 2019 3:02 p.m.)

But I can reflect on some of the places I’ve been, and some of the things I’ve learned, and try to put some things into perspective.  At least for myself because I need to put my ducks in a row.

Saco Library (Dyer). (Oct 30, 2019 3:29 p.m.)

And sometimes… we watch others grow.

(Dec 22 3:09 p.m.)

Some people have asked me if I was ready for winter, or Christmas, and now spring.  And the answer to all of that is a big “NO.”  The year has gone much too fast! 😂

(Dec 22 3:32 p.m.)

Historically, it’s harder to say it’s been a bad year compared to say, World War I.  But it can be hard to keep hope with all the death around us.  Still, we have our senses and our friendships along the way, and can renew that hope when we don’t settle for less.  After all, we’re part of the picture.  Some of us can even start our own businesses.  And we can give corporations that use workers for less the finger.

Well…. I hope this new year is productive and full of good things for all of you, readers.  And I hope this post isn’t too flawed.

It’s going to be okay.

Until next time…

(Dec 13 5:48 p.m.)

Have a Happy New Year. 🙂

6 thoughts on “A look back

  1. Adam! These pictures are AMAZING!!!!! And I loved reading your thoughts here.

    You are just too cool. Yes, 2021 went by so fast. Here it is, January 2, already. Whooosh goes the days.

    I just said a prayer for you to be blessed this year. Sending you a grandma ((HUG)) all the way from New Mexico. ❤

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  2. PS: Yesterday our outdoor temperature was in the teens most of the day, going down to 7 degrees with sunset, and we got about a half inch of snow. When I took our three rescue dogs outside to do their potties, I was so cold, with wind and snow blowing in my face, I almost felt like I was back in Maine. Brrrr…. refreshing!

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